I wish I looked as angelic as he does when I am exhausted. My exhaustion looks more like migraines and pj’s at 6pm on a Friday night as illustrated by the selfies I send to my sister (a teacher!) as a demonstration of solidarity.
It’s the last Sunday in September and I’m not going to lie to you – I’m tired. Most nights I’m ready to fall into bed by 9 pm (okay 8pm).
And I’ve been super frustrated with being exhausted!
I have a really solid self-care plan in place and I’ve been following it diligently. I have good routines in place, I’m getting about 8 hours of sleep regularly, I’m walking everyday and spending time in nature. I’m eating fairly healthy (rewarding myself with chocolate at some point in the day still keeps it decent in my opinion) and doing my exercise program which is not intense but makes sure I’m moving my body in order to keep me moving.
In spite of this self-care plan which is probably the best one I’ve ever had and stuck with…I’m still exhausted. And I was feeling a bit frustrated.
Thoughts kept rolling through my mind.
How can I be this tired?
What am I doing wrong?
Maybe I’m just not cut out for working and raising kids and leaving the house during a global pandemic.
Then I came across this post from @littlehousecalls on Instagram.
Yup I’m tired. Full Stop.
It’s not because I’m doing anything wrong or I’m not cut out for this challenge. It’s that this is a challenge and I’m using energy to keep going.
I’m using energy to take care of myself and my family.
I’m using energy to support friends with children who are anxious about being back to school.
I’m using energy to encourage teachers and EA’s in their amazing work of keeping education going this first month back.
I’m using energy trying to problem-solve, be creative and make decisions on pretty much everything related to functioning as safely as possible during Covid-19 with some sense of normalcy.
So if you are doing all the self-care things and wondering why you are still so tired, I want you to know that it’s okay. There is nothing wrong with you or what you are doing right now.
REST when you can and keep the self-care plans going. Accept the tired. It is what it is.
If you aren’t scheduling or doing any self-care right now (how are you even awake reading!), then hear me when I say we are in a marathon and not a sprint with this pandemic. We need you to be fueling up and caring for yourself every day. Consider this a gentle nudge towards looking at your days and determining what is a necessity, what can be eliminated (for a while at least), who can support you and what can you add in to fill you up and give you energy. And when you just can’t do anything more or you can’t figure out what to do next – REST.
Rest. And then keep on going my friends! Then rest some more.
You’re tired and you’re doing an incredible job of teaching our children within the uncertainty that comes from a global pandemic.
You’ve got this!
PS. Looking for faith in your ability to keep going? Check out my very late September Newsletter Have a Little Faith.
PPS. Wondering why there is no video this post? I realized when I’m tired I can barely string 3 words together let alone speak full coherent thoughtful sentences. But I can still write -it’s slower and gives my brain time to work out what I want to say.